"再過個幾年又幾個月，那容顏我依舊會熟記，但那種感覺終究會棄我而去。我在眷戀的盡頭遇見惆悵，然而這存在並非一種述詞，唯獨當我投身憂愁與悲傷時，我才意識到自我心靈上之曖昧性質。或許這樣太過蕭瑟，我也曾視之如蛇蠍，卻是我心靈轉變的完全投射。" T (2005)
借我用一下吧。雖然我並不是狠了解你心裡當時想什麼。
卻相當程度上引起了一點點的共鳴。當我驀然回首，才發現一切都已經是從前。
Archive for 四月, 2006
feel so wrong
u pretended that u are different, but u are just the same with others.
how can this feel so wrong?
there must something happened but I didnt ask and I dont have to know. things change.
u could’ve told me earlier rather than at this god damn moment.
im silly,
i know this would happen but I still believe that it might be different.
i’ve tried to calm down
and had some dance yesterday but my soul wasn’t there.
maybe we could “do a one night stand, we could change and feel alright".
why cant things be simple? yeah, it’s simple to u.
and same to me. I am a passenger and this is not my platform.
so just quit. dont even try to work it out.
i dont need to if u dont want it.
u dont even know what u want.
i cried for my life and belief.
if being here is wrong, what should i do?
幾乎完全是在消費的一天
今天下午去corn exchange還有city market買水果，沒多逛，因為被一蛋的訊息召回。只為了一個小小網站reference。總之我就回家了，因為他不願意去看看簡單的UPS UK網站。結果回家傳完才發現李察先生根本東西都還沒給，所以我們的報告仍在最後階段。心情很X
接著我又同Frank與Louisa,根虎去little tokyo吃飯，
nigiri好吃，鰻魚飯沒有奇怪的魚味，所以我有吃。UDON也OK，今天吃挺多。還有六顆煎餃<–蔗個算起來很貴。
然後在city與小倆口分別，我們前往Yates，因為Alison在Japanic的生日會還沒開始。打了pool，球感回來!喝了個試管酒after shot<–超強，但是我也很強。跳了舞，穿休閒服在舞池裡的確很怪。
接著要去JAPANIC可是裡面沒人，所以我們掙扎的回到YATES。bouncers還跟我們寒喧了一下，因為我們又回來了。
到JAPANIC的時候我已經失去說話能力了吧，想睡覺。
但是仍喝完了shandy。我比較喜歡the Lounge的。
就這樣，晚安。
btw，我買了新耳機，因為我的耳機壞掉><"
人在衰的時候就是連耳機這種東西都會故障。
現在花大條的我都分四星期攤提，心理上安慰許多=_=
噢對，聽到MP3的音樂順暢流瀉，我差點感動到哭!
左岸,右转 [lyric]
流动的蔚蓝
分了一半
城的两端
白云好淡
河的左岸
已回暖
当季节偷偷交换
任大街曲曲折折的重叠
也转不回昨天
阳光灿烂
但是黯蓝
在弥漫
时间的彼岸
我们对看
被冲散
当思念 慢慢分裂
当世界 依然绕回你的脸
没有改变
我只有预感 没答案
不管我们 习不习惯
那些片段 都不算
可能往右转 或左转
不管我们 喜不喜欢
故事最后还不是 都一样
我只有预感 没答案
不管我们 习不习惯
那些好感 都不算
可能往右转 或左转
不管我们 喜不喜欢
会犯的错还不是 都一样
分了一半
城的两端
白云好淡
河的左岸
已回暖
当季节偷偷交换
任大街曲曲折折的重叠
也转不回昨天
阳光灿烂
但是黯蓝
在弥漫
时间的彼岸
我们对看
被冲散
当思念 慢慢分裂
当世界 依然绕回你的脸
没有改变
我只有预感 没答案
不管我们 习不习惯
那些片段 都不算
可能往右转 或左转
不管我们 喜不喜欢
故事最后还不是 都一样
我只有预感 没答案
不管我们 习不习惯
那些好感 都不算
可能往右转 或左转
不管我们 喜不喜欢
会犯的错还不是 都一样
the 12 tasks of Hercules
I must be so tough that I can sustain all these challenges, pressure and ‘shit’. Ironically, I paid to suffer myself. I deserved it.
My life is a test and a mission. I am thankful in some ways.
I dont have to pretend that I am strong, cuz I already am. That is not to say I am happy with it. I was deprived of being naive and delicate. And this is the process of progress.
to memorise everything happened yesterday (26/04/06)
It happened to be a month after my birthday. This is the worst week I’ve ever had. My shitty life is so ‘classic’ here which makes me laugh non-stop. Dont be sorry cuz u r not the only reason. I tease myself for just having a bad day.
enjoy the lyric folks! (while the music vedio is brilliant as well)
Bad Day-Daniel Powter
Where is the moment when needed the most?
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
you tell me your blue sky’s fade to grey
you tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
you tell me your blue sky’s fade to grey
you tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces everytime
And I don’t need no carryin’ on
Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on
You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing it turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You see what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Had a bad day
Had a bad day
“好", “Yes", “Ok", “no prob." … 肯定語氣運用
你說什麼我都說"好"，
仔細想想自己真的沒怎麼拒絕過誰的要求。只要我做的到。
但是"只要我做的到"這個前提本身就有很大range…
你說什麼我都說"好"，
因為沒有什麼好拒絕，也沒什麼需要拒絕。
到頭來就變成一隻被安撫的貓。你招招手，我蹭蹭你的腳，視反應決定去留。還能走的趾高氣昂滿不在乎。
你要伴而我有空，我要伴的時候你有空，事情碰巧就是這樣?放大來說，人生、社會不都是這樣嗎?這個供需問題原來就是這樣解決。
因為是碰巧，所以沒有負擔。
因為不想要負擔，所以說是碰巧。
我是前者還是後者?你是前者還是後者?
這TMD是個無窮回圈，說不定連自己也永遠弄不清楚。
就像很多人搞不清楚喜歡還是愛、搞不清楚是一時情緒還是真心誠意。感情就是這樣嗎?
這個環境給人的不確定性太大。
大家都說不要太認真，所以人人都不敢認真。
結果是什麼?
把真心隱藏的太完美，而忘記自己原來也只是不能抵擋傷害的血肉之軀。
會失去什麼?
不只是個人的感情價值，也失去了信仰與愛的可能。
但是我已經被鍛鍊成這樣了。一隻貓。
Muller Amor
LUXURY YOGURT….yummy!!!
My Favorite yogurt, it’s now buy one get one free
@ ONESTOP!!!!!
Karman快去買:)
I tried the "Italian Lemon" flavour…but "Spanish Orange" one is more adorable…
開eo4時刻 *內容含偏激文字*
你TMD的什麼鬼報告，老娘為了你連續三天工作到早上五點。外面的鳥們是天殺的沒事做精力充沛白天叫晚上還叫，叫那麼大聲是怎樣。
老娘在房間閉關你們在外面喧嘩搞溫馨是怎樣。我TMD的討厭你們的笑聲。比孔慶祥唱歌還刺耳。
接吻那麼大聲是怎樣。嫌口水不夠多喔。賽。
X! TMD緊張鬼還在催我的另一個報告。
我沒說你這樣有錯。ㄚ你馬有點人性。又不是不知道我換網站寫。你英國人碼有點同理心。
X老娘現在寫完這個完全沒有放鬆的感覺。
都是你給逼的!
視力一定完蛋了搞屁啊!!!!耳不聰目不明，你TMD害我懷疑我有沒有聰明過。更慘的是也許根本沒有。
我現在要把音樂放到緊繃!!!!
該死的MSN竟然還會有禁止文字!!!
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