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comparative lonely

2006 年 06 月 19 日 · 歸檔於 Emotion 心情

… a few months later, she has formed some particular insistences such as:

not to go to the cinema alone,

not to stay in a dorm hostel, and

not to go to a bar alone.

What’s my insistence?

Since everyone’s afraid of being lonely, I dont have to hide behind something merry or pretend that ‘am happy with what I have.

I admit that I am lonely and almost bored to death. Actually I have things to do and to concentrate on but I just dont want to (tho I have to).

Suddenly I find myself can watch movies, have a coffee break, go window shopping, or even travel ALONE!!!

What’s wrong with me? And, what’s wrong with this?

Why are people supposed to fear of being lonely/single? Is it bcuz of fear so that people tend to "hate" this?

Do I really need someone to take me out?? Then who is the "someone"?

The problem is, I dont know how to deal with people. Sarcastically, it is bloody true.

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girl with a pearl earring

2006 年 06 月 15 日 · 歸檔於 Films JACKIE電影院

DVD在英國已經上架許久(今天才發現，這三年前的電影，台灣現在才要上映)
，每次看到他的海報封面，總忍不住駐足。老實說，我並不覺得Scarlett Johanson漂亮，這幅海報的構圖也算常見，但是那眼神，總是那麼令人想知道，這究竟是個什麼樣的故事?

劇情本身並不曲折，但就我的理解，這是一個愛情故事。令人悵惘歎息的故事。

ㄧ個有名的、有才華的畫家，並不能改變女傭的生活、或者她的命運，甚至無法保護她、為她說點話。而必須屈服在贊助人以及岳家的經濟支持上。

葛莉葉並不是個粗野村婦，內斂蘊藉而有分寸。然而她一定也幻想過愛情，與維梅爾的愛情。只是始終無法跨越現實。

至於肉販兒子彼得(他們最後結婚了)，他或許是葛莉葉的出口，還不算太壞、現實生活中算是理想的出口。畢竟，她不能奢望什麼南瓜馬車的童話。

每個人都在掙扎、對抗與妥協，沒有所謂最佳的平衡點。現實中或許我們都不想破壞某種和諧，卻將每個人都遷就在此。沒有人得到，卻已經失去。無論貧富。
生活是什麼顏色?也許總能拂去表面那層灰，就像葛莉葉收到那副珍珠耳環的時候。

in the small island

2006 年 06 月 11 日 · 歸檔於 Emotion 心情, 休閒生活

I watched the vedio clips of the music award of Taiwan sang with the Yanzi, and cried. It’s not that she sings so touching or… but just bcuz it recalls my memory.

In this small island, we were happy and satisfied. Maybe not, but life is peaceful that’s for sure. We are satisfied with our little world.

Will this still be my stage?

maybe I should not think too much. This is where I come from and where I belong. Ive peeked the world and I have to understand what to do hereafter. I should know this better than others.

I will go back to the island and move on. tho I am missing here right now. Maybe it is the feeling of departure that makes me anxious and eager to keep something. But I know I can keep nothing except for my memory.